Why Am I Writing This Blog?
My struggle for self-confidence and acceptance started at a very early age. That little voice in my head wasn’t very nice, and I was constantly worrying about how I looked to other people and why I got stuck with being the ‘fat girl’ who never properly learned how to apply eyeshadow. It took me far too long to understand that I didn’t have to be stuck with anything, and that my body image was very distorted. To cut a long story short and spare you on the melodrama, my insecurities got the best of me, and I bought into the whole eating disorder thing. It was easy, because eating disorders are so tragically glamorized in today’s culture. There are a number of pro-anorexia/bulimia websites and blogs that make an eating disorder look more appealing than the most decadent cake you can imagine. We’ve all heard it before: “you can’t have your cake and eat it, too.”
Well, I’m here to tell you that’s bullshit; that body image and the way you look does not matter nearly as much as we are programmed to think it does. More importantly, I’m here to challenge the roots of body image stereotypes and expectations that have become too-widely accepted.
It breaks my heart when I see people, not just other women, who feel similar to the way I once did. I am so empathetic for those who feel like they aren’t good enough, who have been beaten down by themselves over and over again. Although my battle to overcome an eating disorder and the little dysfunctions that come with it is what inspired this blog, I want to reach farther than that. I want to replace the idea of body love and “being content with the skin you’re in” with the bigger concept of unconditional self-love, and finding more joy than despair in the journey.